The Heroine’s Journey – Step 1

Why I’m Exploring the Heroine’s Journey

When the concept of the hero began repeatedly interrupting my daily reality – in articles and books on writing, in television news stories of local and national heroes, and in my own reflections on unsung heroes who devote their lives to helping others without ever expecting or receiving praise, I decided to explore what defines a ‘hero’ a bit more.

Words and phrases jumped out: endowed with great strength, admired for achievements, noble qualities, great courage, ingenuity, bravery.

A voice in my head screamed – doesn’t this sum up midlife? Don’t so many women experience this journey as they work to find their voice, honor their gifts and talents, and pass on their life lessons to others?

And in last week’s blog, I mentioned that I will take 12 weeks to explore the different stages of Joseph Campbell, Maureen Murdock, and Victoria Lynn Schmidt in relation to how a woman finds her voice, learns to be content, and shares joy.

Week 1: The Journey Begins

  • Campbell: Start in ordinary world / called to adventure
  • Murdock: Heroine separates from the feminine.
  • Schmidt: Illusion of the perfect world.

What the experts say

Campbell’s first and second steps, starting in the ordinary world and being called to adventure, are the beginning of big change for the individual. This might happen by accident – or because of some life-altering event, or it could be a deliberate, conscious decision to change.

Heroine's JourneyFor Murdock, something happens that triggers the heroine’s search for her true self, her identity. Age doesn’t matter – but somehow the “old self” doesn’t fit. A young woman leaves home for school, work, travel, or relationships or a mid-life woman might change careers, divorce, face an empty nest. The important point for Murdock isn’t the when or what but the why. To gain a sense of self, the woman rejects the passive, manipulative, or nonproductive definitions of the feminine, that she most likely witnessed in her own mother, to find her own way. She struggles with distancing from her mother and desperately seeking her mother’s approval. [Murdock, Maureen. The Heroine’s Journey: Woman’s Quest for Wholeness (pp. 4-6). Shambhala. Kindle Edition.]

This rejection of the feminine for the unknown involves that which is unfamiliar, takes her out of a comfort zone and can be driven by both fear and courage. The heroine begins a descent into darkness and isolation, a turning inward for a period of wandering, grief, and rage – with an increased connection to nature, the seasons, and the moon. [Murdock, Maureen. The Heroine’s Journey: Woman’s Quest for Wholeness (p. 8). Shambhala. Kindle Edition.]

The distancing between the woman and her mother may be figurative or literal and is often dependent on the archetypal expression of the Mother she experienced as a child: the Great Mother as a loving superhero or the Terrible Mother who represents overbearing suffering and death (p. 18).

According to Schmidt, “There are five coping strategies the hero may use to get by in the “perfect world.” Through one of these five ways of dealing with the world, the hero allows herself to remain blind to the reality of her situation.” [Schmidt, Victoria Lynn. 45 Master Characters, Revised Edition: Mythic Models for Creating Original Characters (Kindle Locations 2040-2042). F+W Media. Kindle Edition.]

45 master characters

  • The Naive Strategy – nothing bad could ever happen to me
  • The Cinderella Strategy – relies on male protection and guidance, can’t survive alone
  • The Exceptional Strategy – ‘as good as a man’ – I’m the exception – just like them, fit in their group, one of the crowd
  • The Pleasing Strategy – lives to please others, by the book, status quo, imagines she has control over her life by giving control away
  • The Disappointed Type – angry, depressed, bitter, sarcastic, martyr, silently dreams of own goals, looks for role model

In My Experience

I must admit that when I decided to share this 12-week series, I did realize I’d be reflecting on three first steps: when I left home at 18 to enter the convent; when I left the convent at 31 (my first mid-life crisis); and when my career imploded and I became an empty-nester at 52 (in 2015).

Each of these moments fit Campbell’s image of someone being called by accident or choice to a new way of life. This reminded me of what I’ve often called a defining moment. In my experience, these moments don’t always have to be monumental in nature – but they can still cause monumental shifts that drive someone forward on their hero’s journey. At 15, I had a very personal spiritual conversion experience as I climbed the stairs to my bedroom after a drunken stupor – and promised to give my life back to God. The second cycle came much more slowly, through years of discovering truths about my childhood, my religious community, and my deepest desires – a line in a movie, a passing comment, a song on the radio built one upon another until I hit the precipice. And the third journey began just three years ago when I was forced by circumstance to begin again professionally and to discover what I desired after years of living to serve others.

These moments also correlate with Murdock’s perspectives on the heroine’s search for her true self, when somehow the “old self” doesn’t fit. How many times has my “old self” not fit! I’m beginning to realize this is one long journey.

I struggled most with Murdock’s perspective on the rejection of the feminine. I never fully embraced the ‘princess’ mentality of makeup and fancy dresses. I loved a good basketball game and playing tag football with the neighborhood kids, but I also enjoyed playing with dolls and spent many tween and teen hours sewing, cooking, and doing embroidery and latch-hook rugs – everything that would make me a good wife and mother.

mom with roseBut Murdock begins with The Great Mother or The Terrible Mother. My mother fits neither. She single-handedly raised eight children after my father abandoned us – a woman of phenomenal strength and courage. But our relationship was complicated. My mother told me from a very young age that we never bonded because of the 10 days I spent in an incubator at birth. She had no intention of being mean; she believed it as a matter-of-fact. As a child, I cleaned the entire house while she napped or ran errands, wanting to cling to her and make her happy – until, as a teen, I rebelled against the sanctity she and my Catholic school upbringing imposed. Her Christmas gift to me one year was a T-shirt that read, “I’m worth all the trouble I cause.” While we never grew close, I never doubted her love or her fundamental support – despite her struggle to understand or encourage me.

My 2016 memoir focuses on my 13 years as a Catholic nun but begins with the words: “To be honest, my mother didn’t seem all that special to me. Growing up, adults around me, at school and church, called Mom a saint. I learned about and read the lives of the saints, but somehow my mother didn’t fit the bill.” In Murdock’s paradigm, my entering the convent was a separating from the feminine represented by my mother, but was I rejecting her perceived weakness, strength or sanctity?

In one of my early psychology courses, a professor questioned if I entered the convent to fulfill my mother’s childhood dream of being a nun. I loudly and adamantly denied the accusation. But I think he’d tapped into Murdock’s first step. I needed to leave home, and distance myself because I wanted to be better than my mother at being a saint. So, I immersed myself in a world of women who were subservient, obedient, and asexual – striving to be saints.

I was searching for Schmidt’s perfect world.


I wasn’t naïve. I’m not sure I was ever blind to the reality of my situation as a child. From my earliest memory, life was tough. I knew bad things could happen – I was surrounded by poverty, pain, and death.

Cinderella never made sense. I had no need for male protection or guidance. My father had abandoned my mother and 8 children. I was raised to be independent.

I witnessed the exceptional strategy in my mother when she became the man of the house. She taught us how to survive without a man, not because she wanted to be one of the crowd, but because she had to survive and protect her children.

I embraced the disappointed type – as a teen, again in the convent, and during the five years of failure that led to my 2015 shift. I’ve repeated the pattern of anger, depression, sarcasm, and martyrdom, as I dream, fight for, and attempt to create a perfect world. 

Final thoughts

Campbell’s paradigm tempts me to believe that the search for self is noble. That feeling called by God to enter the convent, was the beginning of my hero’s journey – somehow making me special, brave, ‘better than all the rest.’ Or that leaving the convent was my first real step into the hero’s journey. Or that finally distancing myself from working in the church as my career imploded was the real first step. I can’t help but wonder if we’ve missed the mark in somehow isolating the ‘hero’ as special negates the fact that no ‘ordinary world’ exists but rather that we each have a personal call to adventure.

I find comfort in Murdock’s journey– knowing that I’m not alone in my desire to be loved by my mother while at the same time needing to reject her – whether Great or Terrible, to find myself. Exploring the first step of these three journey paradigms has already led me down roads I didn’t expect – and I’m both excited and nervous to continue… uncertain of what I might dig up.

Schmidt leaves me wondering if I’m not still sitting pretty in my illusion of the perfect world — coping — unaware. My hope lies in the fact that I seem to no longer be operating from disappointment. Is this the gift of midlife?

Your Heroine’s Journey Experience

  • With which beginning step do you most identify – Campbell, Murdock, or Schmidt?
  • Which of Schmidt’s strategies best describes your approach to the world as a young woman? As a woman in midlife? As a woman in your third act?
  • Has your rejection of the feminine been literal or figurative? Were you distancing from The Great Mother or The Terrible Mother? Does this fit your experience?

Next week:

  • Campbell: Refusing the Call
  • Murdock: Identification with masculine / gathering allies
  • Schmidt: Betrayal or disillusionment.


  1. This is truly fascinating stuff, Janet.. If Schmidt’s strategies can be combined, as I young woman I probably was a mixture of #1, 3 and 4. I realize that #4 may appear in stark contrast to the other two strategies that I’ve listed, but (sadly) it was there.


    • Whether Schmidt believed they could be combined or not — I think in reality for many it is probably a mix of coping mechanisms, for sure! We are not simple beings – but perhaps we have a primary perspective. I’ll let you know if she says more about that moving forward. Thanks for joining the conversation.


  2. My mother, who raised four children with an always-away husband, once told me four children was too much for her. All she could do was her best. I took her at her word. Lots of upbringings seem to work. Wonderful insights, Janet.


    • Jacqui – I totally agree, lots of upbringings work! I htink we sometimes put too much on our caregivers when I truly believe that many/most do their best. Thanks for joining the conversation.


  3. I think I appear as a mix of 1 & 3, but as for strategies? When I moved out and started for myself I probably identified as 1 ie naive but my 2nd crisis probably began from a point of 3. I don’t get the separating from the feminine thing at all – like you, I’ve never been that girl, and my mother relationship has been complicated. While neither good nor bad from a hindsight view she’s been the best mother someone like me could have. Interesting stuff.


  4. This is going to be a very rewarding series to follow Janet! Indeed, your Mom is an unsung heroine! Having been thrown into a similar situation myself, I was forced to take up challenges with both fear and courage while working through the anger and hurt at being in that situation. Looking back, after reading your post, I can see where I’ve evolved through all three. My mother was the ‘Great Mother’ in very different traditional settings than my own. I’ve come to internalize that I too am a heroine in how I met the challenges in my own settings. As a young woman I followed strategy one, two and four; in midlife I struggled with two, four and five; and now (in the present moment) I feel I’m more with Campbell and Murdoch. That it’s all been an adventure. For me ‘feminine’ includes the exciting challenges I was forced to take on and which added so much to my life. I loved this quote “the woman rejects the passive, manipulative, or nonproductive definitions of the feminine, that she most likely witnessed in her own mother, to find her own way.” Looking forward to the next post! ❤


    • MaryLou – I am sorry that you had that experience but agree that these struggles have made you strong and added so much to your life. I’m glad that you are finding the series rewarding so far. I hope the next steps are thought-provoking for you too. Thanks for joining the conversation.

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  5. I feel like this post deserves an essay in response, and this is our busiest week of the entire year at work, so my free time is limited. So suffice it to say, you’ve given me a lot of food for thought Janet, and I look forward to next week!



    • Deb – I realized when writing this post that it was pretty heavy given the time of year! But I’d put it out there that I’d be doing a 12-week series, so I wanted to follow through. 🙂 Maybe some ideas can percolate over the holidays…I hope your busiest week brings some sense of satisfaction and peace for you. Take care of yourself. Thanks for joining the conversation!

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  6. Wow. You got me in with the title…and then I read. You have covered a lot of ground just in one post. Life sure is complicated and I know I have had some times where I never felt I fit into my family. But now, in my late 60s I am seeing aspects of my mother in me that I would have rejected earlier. I shall be following. Thank you again. Denyse #mlstl


    • Denyse, isn’t it incredible how our mothers – and others – creep into our personalities and our reaction to that influence at different times of our lives! Thanks for joining the conversation – and following along.


  7. Really interesting stuff here Janet – I read through Schmidt’s coping strategies and didn’t relate to any of them as a Midlfe woman, but there were certainly Cinderella and Pleasing (and a bit of Disappointment) thrown into my 20s, 30s and even 40’s. It’s nice to be less influenced by them these days. I also don’t have mother issues – my mum wasn’t a big influence on me either way through most of my life – but over the last several years we’ve become a lot closer and I can forgive her foibles that are the basis for some of my insecurities (still working on those!) I’ll be interested to follow along with your journey through this series.
    Thanks so much for being a part of MLSTL this year – I’ve shared your post on my SM – Happy Christmas! 🙂


    • Leanne, so wonderful that you have become closer with your mother. I find it amazing how our parentals can influence us – close or not. I’m so glad you can identify your insecurities and work through them. Thanks for joining the conversation – and for hosting MLSTL!


  8. This is a fascinating, in-depth series, Janet! Lots of stuff to journal through, that’s for sure (especially since I am embarking on a new adventure in May: retirement). Have you read the book, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller? I really liked the notion that if we are live a worthy life, we must be the hero of our story. I wish we lived closer. I’d love to meet for coffee and further discuss this topic. You offer insights that never occur to me.


    • Molly – I am glad you are finding the series journal worthy so far. And yes, you are beginning a new journey – how exciting! I haven’t read Miller, but I’ll look for it now! That’d be great if we lived near one another – but I’m sure we’ll meet one day! Thanks for joining the conversation.


  9. Janet, So much to process here. I’ve done 4 of the 5 Schmidt strategies at certain points of my life. As a woman entering a male-dominated field in the early 1980’s, you had to become “one of the boys” to survive. It was when I gave up the Cinderella thinking (bought my own house, believed I would never marry) that I met the man who became my husband! In many ways however, I was the “husband” role in the relationship and he the “wife” role.Continuing the Exceptional “be a man”. I think my innate nature is more Naive and Pleasing. Still probably is as I tend to try and accommodate even now. I’ve always had an amazing relationship with my mom – she was and continues to be my biggest supporter….I dread the day when is no longer around. (she is 85) So I’m not sure where this hero journey thinking takes me…I guess I struggle with even thinking I’m any type of hero!


    • Pat, I find this idea of feminine/masculine interesting and am looking forward to seeing how they play out in Murdock and Schmidt. I totally understand the male-dominated field issue and am so delighted that you let go of “Cinderella” to find your life companion! And as for you being a hero, I bet your mother and husband would have some thoughts on that. I think even your effort to publish your retirement learnings is a hero’s journey of its own. Thanks for joining the conversation.

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  10. Hi Janet I am always inspired by your blog posts and the topics you cover. I’m looking at these books to read over the Christmas holiday break. I do get the part about age not being a factor but not being contented with the ‘old self’. I find this fascinating and will be following your posts as you continue The Heroine’s Journey. Have a beautiful Christmas with your family and thank you for being such a wonderful supporter and contributor to #MLSTL this year. See you on 9th January for our first #MLSTL link up for 2019. xx


    • Sue – thank you for sharing that my posts inspire you. That means a great deal to me. And thank you for hosting the #MLSTL. I’m so happy I found your community! I wish you and your family wonderful holidays as well. Thanks for joining the conversation!


  11. I think Murdock’s “rejection” of feminine might be the need for the girl to separate herself from her mother in order to become her own woman. I had a great childhood, but my mother was a formidable woman (still is) and I distinctly remember rebelling in my teens as a way to show her that I was in control of me. I didn’t always make the smartest decisions and luckily I didn’t make any truly bad decisions, but I was trying to make myself known as someone other than Dorris’ daughter. It wasn’t about rejecting her, but more about pushing myself away from her authority and establishing my own sovereignty.


    • Jennifer, I think the idea of ‘cutting the apron strings’ that you are describing is probably more aligned with many women, especially those with positive memories of childhood. Isn’t that what teen rebellion is mostly about? I do think there are also degrees of rejection and separation as well. Thanks for sharing your story – and for joining the conversation.


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